Driving in cars without seatbelts

I don’t think you understand
Who I am

I am the destroyer of
Opportunity
The guardian
Of miscalculation

I can peer into the future and
I must say,
My dear,
I depicted ours with near pristine
Accuracy.

I have this feeling now like I am driving in a car without
A seatbelt

But I am a supreme deity
Voracious for an answer
Rapacious for revenge
And I promise I will not abandon my quest
Until I get both.

You must not understand who I am because
You did not love me when
You had the chance

But I think all my lovers drive eighty miles per hour to my intersection
Then as they approach
Slam on the breaks when they realize the light
Was actually a deceptively greenish
red.

I have this feeling now like I am driving in a car but
I will crash sometime in the next eight seconds

And I am not sure if I first forge my future and then predict it,
But I’m sure as hell
reading the runes
Right.

I have this feeling now like I am driving in a car but
I suddenly looked over and
You are not in my passenger seat
Anymore.


I need to get this magick out of my system
I need to strain it from my blood
And
Dust it off my bones
So I can be some mortal just
Stumbling blindly

Instead I see every mistake and
Every disaster hurtling my way
So I make sure my vehicle has
Working airbags

It makes it harder to roll the window down and
Meander down this road
I know will soon be speckled
With my blood.

Yesterday we were blissful
Tangled up in unfathomable, ungeometric positions
Inventing words and
Defying the English dictionary with
What we were
Who we were
Whatever the hell
We were doing

And I always say I’m going to live in the moment but
It still doesn’t help later when
I thought I would have a full tank
Of happiness
But instead I find
I am running on fumes

Each word you utter to me today
Is a flashback of a past premonition
And it’s sort of funny watching
Like I could press pause
Or rewind
Or fast forward
Or mouth the words
Along with you.

I was right
And you were wrong.

Admit it.

I have this feeling now like I am driving in a car
For only a little while
Before it breaks down once again
And I have to push the whole thing uphill.