The Laws of Physics

Pick up the notebook
         again
     Collect another heartache
                     Catch another teardrop.


   I sigh.
       Some stains don't come out.



  I would have loved it.
                     
                  To be so certain,
               To be so serene.
         Not to have to think,
                                   just to do,
                         to follow the flow
                   instead of wondering where to go.





           

Your eyes sparkle at the news,
         As if it's anything new.
  I close my eyes.
                  It's not. I'm sure of it.




Dreams, dreams pull me
     into reality,
  my heavy head sinking
through my cotton candy clouds.


                   I never liked pure sugar.
               I'm simply not that simple.



    So who am I?
Someone tell me.


             Pain comes with little knowledge.
         Burning yourself on the same flames
            you thought were different colors.


      What do I want?
            Someone give it to me.



   So wedge the pill between caramel dreams.
   I'm good at biting the bullet;
       just swallowing things down.





But I'd rather not have to...






Wanting what I don't want
     Having what I don't have
  Being what I can't be...






It all bores a hole in me.




Gravity must be satisfied.
           Knowing what it wants.
      To pull toward it.