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This is a hopeless case
You are a sickness I keep trying to dislodge from my immune system with
Cans of soup and cough drops
But you are resilient
And remain tucked away inside.

I tried rinsing you out of my eyes with
Droplets of old, painful memories
They washed much onto the sand
But strangely not
You

I am gripping on so tightly to the crumbling edges of sanity
But the only urge that's stronger than survival
Is the urge to just
Let go

Your eyes held mine hostage
And that stronghold of emotion was my last defense
But you insisted on arresting it anyway
You persuaded me to lower my guard
And you skillfully massacred
An entire army

I am not a mountain to be claimed with your
Waving red flag
Snapping against the wind in
Triumphant arrogance
I am an ocean whose depths
Would take you millennia to exhaust
And whose salty waters assaulted your open wounds
Though it was not my
Intention

I would kiss every scratch on you
After you battled your way through my thorny maze
I would sing you sweet lullabies
After slaying you with siren song
I would beg and plead for you to give me your life
Even after you lost it to my snarling desire
For independence

But you wouldn't
You wouldn't
You wouldn't LET me.

I just want to wake up and see you next to me
I don't need to call you mine
But I just want to know that I'll see you again
Touch you again
Kiss you again
Because I miss you again
And again
I'm so sorry
Again
Can you forgive me
Again?